Introduction

Welcome, all who dare to enter this story of my life. Well, some of it anyways. In the sections of the book titled chapters, you will find guidance from me and how I have handled different aspects of being a single mom. In the Journal entries you will find an unedited detailed account of me finding myself after a divorce in the upcoming pages. After 10 years of being married and thinking that I had found the love of my life, my marriage ended. That ending was not my choice.  Baring it all for the world to see, I had wanted to ask you not to judge me, but that’s bullshit, and you and I both know it. Judge me if you want. You are free to do what you want with this book. Fuck, you bought it. 

If I can help just one of you help you find yourself, accept yourself, or just empower you for a second of your crazy life, my job is done. I want you to know that my story is not yours. Your story will be different, and no one is allowed to tell you how to grieve the loss of a life you thought you were going to have. Don’t let my story pigeon whole you into thinking this is how it is supposed to be. You will follow your own journey. But now we are in this together. You are not alone. I see you. 

When reading my story, you will notice that there are entries, and they are numbered. This number represents the order I actually wrote these pieces. The grieving process is a weird one, and we all go through stages that things are better than others. Sometimes it can feel like a full-on rollercoaster that you can’t get off of. There are times you just don’t know when that high is going to drop. I rearranged the entries in hopes that the story makes more sense to you. 

Please enjoy my story. I hope that it shows you that while there are times that you are not sure how you will get through, tomorrow is another day with all new ways to screw up. You got this girl.